So my blog didn't post last week, but the good news is we made it to Honduras safe and sound and we have now been living here for two weeks! The first week we spent at a place called Zion's Gates which is a home run by a man named Tony who has a ministry for teenage boys who come and live with him off the streets and has different ministries throughout Tegucigalpa like working with homeless through different connections. Our first week there was a week of rest and time spent in community with all the teams together. It was such a blessing to have that time not doing ministry, but just spending time investing in each other. It feels like we have a family here together already! We've been sleeping in our tents and eating rice and beans for almost every meal. There are ice cold showers, but it's a huge blessing just to have a shower! It feels like fall in the mornings and nights but during the day it gets really warm. We are surrounded by mountains and it's kind of insane to wake up every day to that view. I'm still coming to grips with the fact that I am living here for three months- this isn't a quick trip. I'm doing life in Honduras!
The Lord worked in my heart a lot that week to surrender everything to Him. Change isn't easy for me but I was called to abandon everything so that I could become fully His. God taught me that I am not my own and until I surrender everything that could be put before Him, I can't be one over whom Jesus writes the word 'mine'. He is pursuing and loving me so much. He wants me to revel in my role as daughter and just being a perfect delight to Him. None of this is easy, but what an honor that is. My Jesus wants me enough to break me of the things I hold before Him and put me through that hardness so I can be closer to Him. It's a little overwhelming. I am entirely His, all of my mess all of my brokenness all of me, and He is entirely mine. He takes me as I am and loves me not as where I should be but as where I am right in this minute. This verse has been an anchor for my soul amongst all of this change and it is Song of Solomon 7:10 "I am my Beloved's and his desire is for me." God's desire is for me. Please take time to let those words soak into your heart because they are true for all of us.
Please keep praying for our squad and bear with my spotty updates.
